I am Viola Alvis.
I am a 30 something woman trying to learn more about myself. As Henry Thoreau once said:
Direct your eye inward, and you’ll find a thousand regions in your mind yet undiscovered. Travel them, and be expert in home-cosmography.”
I am an explorer at heart, and love to learn and be creative in everything I do. A few months ago, I started Cognitive Processing Therapy to tackle PTSD stemming from an attempted kidnapping and an emotionally and sexually abusive previous marriage. I am learning that I don’t know myself as much as I like to think, or rather, I have hidden little parts of myself in a small closet inside my brain. In order to heal, I need to reacquaint myself with those little pieces of myself – or little me’s, as I like to call them. I felt that doing so in a public place could possibly give someone else clarity about their past or current situation, while giving myself a place to self-analyze and have a therapeutic release. I also plan to throw in some random blurbs to add some light to the darkness. There also might be lists on here, poems, etc. Have I mentioned I like lists? I am a creative individual with a very linear list-loving mind.
This is what I am aiming to accomplish here:
- To help remove the negative connotation surrounding mental health problems and treatments by talking about them in an open matter.
- By creating a safe place for myself to be open, I hope inspire others to be open to explore themselves too.
- I want to bring awareness to the issue of sexual trauma within a marriage. Most people think of sexual harrassment, sexual trauma, and rape occurring with strangers or people outside of your circle of intimacy. However, it is a very real thing to experience any of those things from a sexual partner, girl/boyfriend, spouse, etc. The worst thing is to experience something like that and think “well, this is my sexual partner, so this is probably allowed/normal/acceptable, right?” Awareness of what those behaviors really are can provide an immense amount of strength for the victim by removing their feeling of responsibility, and placing it on the correct person.
- Lastly, I plan to insert random pieces of fun, flair, and lightness. Sort of like putting sprinkles on ice cream, cupcakes, bagels, etc. Considering the depth and gravity of the topics I will be discussing, it would good to take a break and enjoy some nerdy, absurd, goofy, fun. And possibly funny cat or pug memes. 🙂